I haven’t been posting much lately. You see, I’ve been battling some pretty major depression. It started as a physical issue, my body was just run down, but then it has now spread into my mind. I’m trying really hard to not run from it or stuff it or suppress it. To be honest, I’m tired. I’ve started getting out and taking walks when I just want to sleep. But then sleep eludes me and finds me awake at odd hours or too early in the morning. Waking up tired, makes the day seem empty and hopeless. I know intuitively it’s not, but depression in a lot of ways can’t be reasoned with. I thought to fight my way out of it, but I am on a journey of self discovery lately and have decided to just be in the moment. I think in this case, the depression is trying to tell me something. So, as I lean into it, I will keep my heart open and listen and feel. I’m trying to not be so hard on myself, be kind to myself, and take note of the little things that might bring a spark, like tiny pink carnations with long green stems and fresh figs, eaten with much pause….


by Cindy
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